MomoのKokoro

That's what all of us have been, recently.

It's about nearing the end of a phase of life which everyone had warned us from the start would be the best time of our lives. That once we're shakaijin, out in the big big world, things get much tougher and one longs to return back to the time of childhood.

Spent a last, lazy weekend over there and it was fun. I love lazy Saturdays and Sundays, when you wake up and peer out of the window and the sunshine is streaming into the room. The air is cool and the place is almost quiet. Being with people who you feel so comfortable with, no need for projections of personas, that's becoming so important (why does this line sound like something Pi would write)!?.

Like what M wrote before, I think I have reached a phase in my life when I am just not super sociable (never was to begin with)! Just hanging out with a bunch of people who understand, who are accepting, who are happy and positive. That's all I ask for from friends. No drama and all that... I was crazy enough to get my wish granted a few years ago, and learnt a lot. Be careful, dear ones, of what you wish for. Sometime you really get things/ people you -think- you want...

Little things like the quiet of the living space, the cool air, seeing tons of flowers and grass growing outside, taking weird pictures, watching dreamy cotton-candylicious lakorn and longing for unattainable things, wishing I could go around with a rose-colored vision of the world. Lazy Sunday breakfasts of scrambled eggs, blueberry pancakes, pineapple, grapefruit and orange salad. Having a place of refuge to go to, knowing that at the end of a hard hard day there'll be someone there who understands, even if I don't say a thing.

If I had a time-turner, I don't know. I don't know if I could bear a trade between intellectual challenge and the safety and simplicity of mundane life. The stories out there never focus on what happens after the couple gets together... the story is always about the obstacles they face -before- getting together.

Flowers wilt, too quickly. I see them every day, and am reminded to look a little farther down the road.

하나기미♥

Posted in: Philly on Monday, May 14, 2007 at